Thursday, January 3, 2013

Why?


Maureen Dowd had a terrific column, "Why, God?" in the New York Times on Christmas day. The column's actual author was Fr. Kevin O'Neil, a Roman Catholic priest who is a long-standing friend of her family. In her prefatory remarks, Dowd wrote that doctors were amazed that when Fr. O'Neil held the hand of her dying, unconscious brother her brother's blood pressure dropped noticeably. Obviously, Fr. O'Neil is a man of God who touches life in powerful if mysterious ways. Dowd requested Fr. O'Neil to address the question of how one can celebrate Christmas in the aftermath of the tragic and incomprehensible death of 20 children and 7 adults in Newtown, CT.

In part, Fr. O'Neil wrote:

I believe differently now than 30 years ago. First, I do not expect to have all the answers, nor do I believe that people are really looking for them. Second, I don’t look for the hand of God to stop evil. I don’t expect comfort to come from afar. I really do believe that God enters the world through us. And even though I still have the “Why?” questions, they are not so much “Why, God?” questions. We are human and mortal. We will suffer and die. But how we are with one another in that suffering and dying makes all the difference as to whether God’s presence is felt or not and whether we are comforted or not.

One true thing is this: Faith is lived in family and community, and God is experienced in family and community. We need one another to be God’s presence. When my younger brother, Brian, died suddenly at 44 years old, I was asking “Why?” and I experienced family and friends as unconditional love in the flesh. They couldn’t explain why he died. Even if they could, it wouldn’t have brought him back. Yet the many ways that people reached out to me let me know that I was not alone. They really were the presence of God to me. They held me up to preach at Brian’s funeral. They consoled me as I tried to comfort others. Suffering isolates us. Loving presence brings us back, makes us belong.

A contemporary theologian has described mercy as “entering into the chaos of another.” Christmas is really a celebration of the mercy of God who entered the chaos of our world in the person of Jesus, mercy incarnate. I have never found it easy to be with people who suffer, to enter into the chaos of others. Yet, every time I have done so, it has been a gift to me, better than the wrapped and ribboned packages. I am pulled out of myself to be love’s presence to someone else, even as they are love’s presence to me.

I will never satisfactorily answer the question “Why?” because no matter what response I give, it will always fall short. What I do know is that an unconditionally loving presence soothes broken hearts, binds up wounds, and renews us in life. This is a gift that we can all give, particularly to the suffering. When this gift is given, God’s love is present and Christmas happens daily.

I applaud Fr. O'Neil's understanding of the meaning of Christmas. On this tenth day of Christmas, I pray that my ministry is as powerful as his is.

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